watched some hong kong drama for hours... trying not to think too much, clear my head or watever terms there is to say. wish human could breathe underwater.... it would b so nice to just stay underwater forever
not even catching a glimpse of the world above... tat would've been good.
imersed in cold water, taking away all my feelings. making me numb, towards all those in life. it would've been blissful, to not feel such emotion
am drowning myself with books. cuz when i am, im thinking too much. just too much. not tat im actually reading it, my eyes are scanning but other than images, they're just black object against a white blackground
this class which i came to really appreciate it, has done a lot for me. chun ming, khai yi, yateran, zee way, yi min, shier yen, liang hao.... among all those who actually distracted me from the forbidden thought. u guys actually have no clue tat u're doing a great deal of help here didnt ya? they just happen to ask a random question whenever i stepped close to the cliff.
vi? u're just making it worse than ever. tats y i wont answer ur question that day. i felt like running laps around the school...
u guys actually make better friends than i ever imagine. i've been isolating myself from u guys, to keep myself from being........ changed. yea, there's no better word than tat. but you, u shot right through. u've gone through all those defences, smashed the city wall, embedding fragments of yourself inside this forbidden city
corrupting registry entries, infecting core files... n yet, opened a backdoor to bring in the calvary
the city has fallen, blood shed, the enemy has won...
i just cant get over you, no matter how hard i try...
