feel bad. after all, this is all i've wanted. but still, im not okay. im not. perhaps i wished too much... perhaps i dont want this to end like this... i dont know
since hy was *******(left spaces for u guys to fill with watever u wanna 2 say) enough to ask and even post it, i dont need to say much. it was supposed to b done without a shed of sunlight, in the dark underground below. no one was suppossed to get hurt, it was supposed to b merciless n clean... supposed
part of me kept telling me tat its all done now, the other, wants to go back, wishing that everything never happened. perhaps i should nvr have stepped into this school rite from the start. a guy who sits beside me in add math tuition yesterday said:“你不如转来我们学校啦！”
of course, he didnt know wat happened. just that he thinks jit sin's too tough. i fell for tat idea for a while. woke up when i realise i promised lini not to switch schools. among all the promises i've made in my wandering life
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exam. cant study without dozing off. started studying 2 weeks ago because i knew this would happen. yet, havent even finished chp 2 of bio. moral? chinese idioms? physics? chemistry? sej? add maths? mod maths? society stuff? the PC lying there i promised to fix earlier this year?
time was never enough for me. i do have schedules, but there's always something to upset tat delicate balance....
my mom wants me to go 4 some religious stuff i hated the most. its non productive, a waste of time and energy. u hv to just sit there and mumble something u'll nvr catch up, meet some bald headed idiot who makes u wanna slap them whenever they start blabbing, n then by the end of the whole joke, my mom would wanna do something extra saying tat bsc she believes....
it wasnt supposed to b like this, life isnt
安静 -周杰伦
im not gonna do anything, if u chose him rather than me, make sure he does a better job...
