i realized that i only work as hard as i can when there is something that i need but i cant get it. over the years, i became interested in electronics not because i am interested in electronics. its because there are alot of things that i cant do without things that are DIY-ed and you couldnt exactly buy those kinda stuff anywhere. even if its there, those things always include alot of nonsense features which makes them very expensive(i was very poor back then). so i picked up electronics and learned how these little components work together and make something i needed(or wanted) with what i've learned. 学艺自用.
i remembered there was once when i needed a torchlight which is brighter than those expensive but barely usable crap sold in pasar malam. so what i did was i found a white LED, and i was overjoyed at the time bsc it was the first time i ever found one. i got it from a toy which you get from those 50 cents capsule thing. the toy was out of battery of course, and i couldnt afford batteries for it. those lithium batteries cost bout rm7 at the time. i've got alot of old batteries collected over time but it wouldnt work(those were old batteries). so i figured tat it needs more power. and where do you get more power? it was almost an eureka moment when i thought tat the power from the mains socket never runs out and could power the television in my house and the television was so bright!!! laugh if u want... i sometimes too laugh at myself for what i did back then. i remember pulling the power cord from the kettle(or was it the rice cooker?) and bsc the contacts of those power cords were inside 3 holes(ground, live and neutral), i only need to stick a wire into them to access it. n stupidly, tats what i did. i hook up the LED to the power cord and i turned on the power. it was a standard sized LED, the kind you would find at KH lab, so i needs minimum of 1.5V or a MAXIMUM of 5v(cheap ones blow at a mere 3v). also it is worthy to be noted that the mains put out 240v of power. well, at that time i didnt know anything bout ohm's law, volts or AC/DC. i just know that that thing needs power and power is what im giving it. what happened? it blew up. yes, the LED blew up. and i was living in chai leng park at the time and the TNB is quite crappy at the time(it still is, ask yifeng) so the power was shorted and caused the whole lorong to be out of power(i knew that later). the LED blew up in my face bsc i was so near to it. immediately i was frightened, afraid that my mom or dad would come in and saw what i did so i threw everything away. i was so scared that i couldnt sit right and actually pee in my own pants. when my parents did came back, they immediately knew something was wrong because the whole house smelled of smoke and there was a patch of black soot on the floor of the living room. i got scolded of course.
there was alot of such cases over the years of my life. but i remember this one best bsc i was SO freaking stupid LOL. it was a good try for the extent of my knowledge back then. i used to work on making a torchlight everyday after school and the usual homework. i experimented with all sorts of stuff, even with batteries made of lemon. of course, i was stupid and i used plastic pieces from toys instead of metal haha... but for all the stupidity, i worked hard. harder than i did with my academics all bsc i needed a torchlight!
then there comes UPSR. truth to be told. i was a bad kid back then. not in bully or stealing kind of bad kid, i am just not tat interested in study. i was back in standard one but my first primary school killed my passion for study. SRJK(C) Chung Hwa 3 in Inderawasih, Prai. that school killed my passion for study. then i switched school at the end of standard 2 but my interest never came back. i was the typical lazy boy who doesnt like to do homework, doesnt pay attention in class, that sort of things. i read books though, mostly english story books i borrowed from libraries. but i dotn like homeworks and i seldom do them. its not like i dont finish them, i dont even do them. and in primary school you get strokes of cane if you dont do homework or get bad results in exams but i didnt cared. it hurts alright, but i didnt cared much. LOL, even with this attitude, i am still in the first class!! so im a lazy dont care bout study student, but i still got 7As in UPSR. what happened? now, you might say that UPSR is ridiculously easy n all.. but in my primary school, only 21 of us got 7A. so to us back then, it was kinda hard. actually, i was that kinda student until June of standard 6. well, i fell in love. my first love actually. she wasnt the very smart type and i honestly forgot why i loved her so dont bother asking. she was just the average girl which we shared the same class for 2 years and she lived opposite of my house back then. back then i was stupid and i wanted to impress her and win her over bsc gossips had it that she was in love with another guy. now, aint rich, i aint handsome for obvious enough reasons and i am kinda shy back then. so i needed a way to get her attention and mom happened to tell me one day that if you're good in your studies, girls would be all over you. and i suckered believed it. it wasnt until June that i decided to give it a try. i was studying HARD. it was like i became a study machine and all my academics went skyrocket. my math teacher had a very bad image of me bsc i particularly flunked math and was worst in class. she was shocked bsc i went from fail to 98(yes, i remembered that mark very well) in 2 months. and i did all the homework there ever is. incredibly, all my results went up. i even got 1st place in malay and english essay writing. i still have the certificate lol... and yes, i've got her attention. one day she came over my place and asked me why i changed so much. and that was it! she wasnt very good at academics too so i helped her and secretly made my move haha... i still remember that before the first paper of UPSR, she held my hand and wished me luck. well, it made me feel like i could fly... we still maintained contact and we go cycling around the taman in the holidays before high school. we both got into jit sin fortunately. on january next year, we became a couple.
and this is how i became less of a lazy student. not bsc i've had it in me but bsc of a girl. if i've never met her, i think i wouldnt b in jit sin, and my life would be totally different. maybe i would be in one of those school nearby where gangster and motorcycle racing is at large. and turned out to be a typical "pai kia". i would certainly say that my life is better because of her.
actually, i wrote all these bsc internet is down. stupid screamyx. and i haven been scrambling my mind trying to figure out a way to get online. found how to hijack the ipad's underused data plan and suddenly thought about all these. lesson? things would work out if you really wish it would. set a goal to motivate yourself and anything could be accomplished! yes, even picking up girls LOL... so to all the people out there, dont ever give up.
goodnight everyone...
