and i hate it. now i wish that its still exam week. guess what? the 1st thing i get after the exam is over is mom dragging me to some psychopath and wanting me to change my name n bla bla bla. i dont want to. the freak kept on going bout losing parents before age of 19, obstructions in career and losing eyesight(duh! im wearing glasses u fktard!). i dont want to hv anything to do with this bullshit but knowing my mom, i cant say no. she's always the one who ask nicely 1st, then if i object, she'll go mad and order me to. when i get pissed off bout it, she'll b like "i ask u nicely, its not like i dont giv u a choice...." screw that. and THEN she came asking y i dont want it" n believe me, you DONT want to answer a thing. it'll backfire. its either that or she'll start scolding. its like its always her getting what she wanted and claim that she's just being nice.
almost every weekends or EVERYTIME she had free time she just HAD to drag everyone out for some stupid thing to do. im fine with stupidity, but i AM not fine when EVERY trip has to end up with her wasting EVERYONE's time. dad always get pissed off by this but SHE just wont change.
i am going to rant for a very long post, so if you cant take it, GTFO
i remember this year when my brother had his birthday. we went to some japanese place in auto city. it was supposed to be a happy occasion where everyone hv fun. and the most important thing of the day my BRO hv fun. and there's where the problem comes in. when we started to order, my bro wanted to eat noodles and mom objected. no problem with tat. but when my bro INSISTED, she yelled there and then. my bro had to comply. after we done eating, i was still drinking my tea. the waiter came in with the cake but without the lighter. after she left, mom asked me to get a lighter. i didnt respond for a while bsc i had the cup INFRONT of my mouth and there's still liquid FLOWING from the cup INTO my mouth. mom YELLED again. i was like wtf!?
also, i hate i whenever my mom asked me to do something. hold on, i hv no objections watsoever IF she asked me to do something when i am not doing anything important or i am free. but i DO get pissed off when she ALWAYS hv me do something like "can go buy laksa ar" or "wei, i lazy go out, can pass this to XXX ar" or "i wan watch tv, go collect money from XXX" when im in the mid of studying for exams or in the mid of a math question or fixing something in my house. to be exact, she always call for me when im in the mid of something important! when i asked her can it wait im busy she'll go "everytime i ask u do something also cannot, everytime also say busy". well, its not MY problem YOU ALWAYS pick the WRONG time to call! if she asked me to do something while im watching tv or playing games im fine with it. really, i'll do it without a word. BUT she always hv NOTHING for me to do when im free! its like she saves up all the stuff to do and unleashes all of them when im in the mid of something important. last time she interupted me in the mid of study to driver her all the way to KEDAH to buy 3 durians while stopping A MILLION times on the way just to see flowers and vege. the promised half an hour trip got extended to 4 FKING hours. its like i live to serve her and i had to dedicate ALL my time to standby to serve her. this is FKING WRONG!
she just likes to veto everything and yet outsiders think she's such a great mom and we're all so obedient. NEWS FLASH!!!!! she VETOed us!!! when she says 1, there's no such thing as 1.01, if she says 2, there's HELL no 2.01! you think her kids are so supportive? being there at each of her freakin beauty pageant? well THIS is the truth. she asked us to go nicely, and when we EVEN hestitate, she YELLS!!! so whenever she wants us to do something, she doesnt ask, she COMMANDS.
sometimes, i dont like talking or discussing with my mom. i rather call my sis or some other person OTHER than my mom. yes, i would rather ANYONE other than my mom. you know y? its bsc my mom, if you tell her something, it backfires. you tell her she's being unfair(happened when i was 10), she fills your bowl it all the dishes and orders you to finish them. you tell her that you made a mistake, she YELLS at you and kept repeating and scolding you for the same reason for weeks. you just cant tell her anything. that y even though we're in a bad mood and she asks, we NEVER tell. but then she'll YELL again demanding that we tell her. i dont know what the hell to say bout that.
and i dont know where she get this idea of harmonic family from. probably watched too much hong kong dramas or read too much crap books. she always tell us bout all of us going to somewhere for holidays and renovating the house so that we can hv dinner at the garden n wad wad. that where the nightmare starts. you see, all these dreams of hers ALWAYS include her yelling and scolding for stupid reasons. we all knew that. so whenever she asked "eh, this holiday wan go where play", we ALL just pretend we didnt heard it. the last time i remember we had a real holiday is back in f2, when dad is still around. he's the only thing in the world who can supress her madness. he makes mom's annoying holidays fun. he does that. even a trip to the supermarket is fun with him there cause he'll teach us bout all the random things in life. too bad he left. now we had to face mom alone.
this is just not fair.
y is exam over? if its not holidays, i would be studying. no time to think of all these. holidays make me lazy. i played game for whole day today. stopping only to eat and drink. i knew it was bad for me, but what else to do? this is y whenever i wanted to study, i would go to my sis's place. topics that i studied at my sis's place i would remember and do better. i cant study at home partially bsc my computer is here and MOM is here. she just wont leave me alone. i am sorry for both my bro bsc the youngest one kept getting pampered even after all the wrong thing's he's done. mom always let him do anything he wants hence he became obnoxious and a crybaby. he's 9 and he still cries to get what he wanted. the other bro kept getting scolded for every reason in the world but he never knew the real reason he was scolded. so to him, mom is just there to punish him.
i just.... dont know.
y is exam over again?
